I feel compelled to stay in tonight. I do not want to go out to a bar or to a house party. I just want to stay in the seclusion of my dorm room — I just want to be alone.
In my opinion, there are two types of alone: pitiful lonesomeness and peaceful solitude.
Pitiful lonesomeness is, well, pitiful. This is the type of alone that leaves you feeling dejected and sorrowful. This is the type of alone that leaves you feeling like you have nothing and no one. This alone sucks.
Peaceful solitude is heavenly. This is the type of alone that makes you feel complacent. This is the type of alone that makes you happy, happy with yourself and happy with all around you. This alone is wonderful, and, in college, this alone is rare.
Tonight, I am peacefully alone. I willingly opted out of social inclusion tonight. Don't get me wrong, I am a very social creature, but sometimes, I just need a break. During the week, I am constantly surrounded by others; meetings, dinner dates, classes, workout sessions — people everywhere. I like people, and I like this company. But I also like myself.
Tonight, I am simply in the company of myself. I am (happily) alone.